Here I was with 2 on-heat bucks running loose among my does. Didn’t I decide 9 years ago that I was done with the ‘Births, Marriages and Deaths‘ scenario? This was by far the worst thing I could think of!
I went down to the house and over a cup of coffee was inspired (thank goodness) to give myself a real hard talking to:
“Pat, this is the Serpent messing with you. He’s got you in a right stew and as long as you’re in a stew, you block the Lord’s work. Remember what He said: “Focus on Me!” Just do it, and stop falling for Satan’s talk. Whatever happens, it’s not the end of the universe. With the Lord’s help, you will get through it. And remember, “Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” (1 John 4:4)
Thank you, Lord.
In trials like these, it can be very difficult to realign your thinking. All the evidence is against that, all the facts point one way, and the news is all bad: ‘No-one in their right mind would think any differently.’ But Paul emphasized the importance of walking by faith, not by sight. And he was tested sorely throughout his ministry: you can’t accuse him of not knowing what he was talking about.
Paul said, “So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight.” WHICH TRANSLATES:
“The more we engage with worldly thinking the more we turn away from the Lord’s power. So we need always to be of good courage and walk by faith in Him, not by what we see.” (2 Corinthians 5:6-7)
Our limited minds are always searching for answers and solutions: “How, how, how can this come right?” “What can I do to sort this problem?” “Can I think of some way out of this situation?” It’s hard, with our worldly drive to organize and plan everything, to ‘opt out’ and let things go. We get hammered with the goal setting, visualizing and life planning ideologies of the self improvement gurus. Not to mention the ‘I Did It My Way’ would-be standard for living enshrined in the world’s thinking over 46 years ago. What a travesty that was! How many people were fooled by it! Still are.
Didn’t Jesus say, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30) No DIY, no goal-setting instructions there.
How many of those who heard Him, and how many of us, struggling with the issues and dramas of everyday life, have thought, “This guy was crazy!” And yet … ‘this guy’ holds the keys to the universe, life and death, in His hand.
Somehow, I managed to settle down and quit worrying.
It would be nice to say that next morning the bucks had disappeared – well at least I couldn’t see them anywhere. I opened the paddock gate again and the does went up. Washing the dishes, I was full of hope – until I heard an irate call that didn’t sound like a doe. It was Himself, allright – suddenly realizing they’d got away from him. As I watched from the kitchen window, he charged through the open gate and on up the paddock in search of his harem…
But now, 7 days down the track, I can pretty definitely say the bucks are not on the property. None of the does is on heat and I haven’t sighted Himself or his offsider for over 6 days. Maybe they are like sailors with a girl in every port… Somehow, they must have got back through the fence into the bush and I have a window of about 2 weeks to get the fence mended before the does come on heat again (if they haven’t taken to service).
As far as I could tell, only 2 of the does cycled. So if I can keep Himself and his offsider out, the kid drop may be less than I feared.
“Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits…” (Psalm 103:2)
Yes indeed – Regardless.